~XxIntimateSuicidexX

i never knew i could feel such a deep throbbing pain of sorrow, until he came along..

"Do you know the most surprising thing about having a broken heart? It doesn't actually kill you. Like a bullet to the heart or a head-on car wreck. It should. When someone you've promised to cherish and be with you forever, says "I never loved you," it should kill you instantly. You shouldn't have to wake up day after day after that, trying to understand how in the world you didn't know. The light just never went on, you know. I must have known, of course, but I was too scared to see the truth. Then fear just makes you so stupid.

... what is it about love that makes us so stupid?"

it feels as if my heart has dropped to the pit of my stomach,
so empty, feeling so sick.
i wish the tears would stop staining my face.
its burning now from wiping them away so many times.
no matter what i do i cant stop the wet streams from stinging my cheeks.
i just wish the pain would go away. i just wish i could stop my eyes from swelling up with tears. i wish i could be strong. why is it that everyday i wake up and its always there that same hurting and it never goes away.. sadly nothing i do can change the way he feels.
theres nothing i can do. emotionless asshole!
the only person hes every fucking cared about was himself!
his whole fucking life just haded to him on a silver platter.
who made you god, what made you so fucking special and since when are you better than everyone else.
you could never fucking be proud of me.
every god dam day it was something different thatyou just had to complain about. when really i never did anything wrong.
its like he got this satiscfaction from seeing me in pain.
its like it makes him feel good everytime im breaking down.

someone please just rip heart out already so i dont have to feel like this anymore!
i just dont know what to do...